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New beginnings: From Am with Love!

 

You are welcome here,

Be at your ease.

Get up when you‘re ready,

Go to bed when you please.

We’re happy to share with you

Such as we’ve got,

The leaks in the roof and

The soup in the pot.

You don’t have to thank us

Or laugh at our jokes,

Sit deep and come often…

You’re one of the folks.

 

These words eloquently express my wish for you. I grew up seeing these words on the wall of my mother’s house and they have remained with me all these years. They epitomize the place I call home. I come here to share my observations and ideas, things that touch and move me, as well as  things that make me laugh or cry. Word to the wise, in this space I may often ‘wear my heart on my sleeve’ and or ‘vent my spleen’ occasionally, rest assured and know though that it is only because this is a safe space designed to suit exactly that need, for to me, it is like home.

Welcome, Namaste. Jai Guru Dev. Camagu.

‘Mind your language’

‘What we say to yourself about yourself when you are by yourself becomes your truth- your gospel ‘ Rev Kevin K Ross

So often I’ve heard the words ‘ be yourself ‘ or ‘love yourself ‘ and still wondered just how does one do that if to some degree one feels they don’t quite know themselves?

This, of course, is from my point of view… most of us don’t know ourselves well enough because we dont seem to take/ make or have the time to get to know ourselves. We know of ourselves relative to what we hear from others about ourselves and also what we say we are to others, not really what we are experientially.

For many years now I’ve dedicated a lot of my time reading all manner of self-help books, sacred texts, and varying materials from different spiritual traditions. This has been and continues to be my favourite thing to do… I’m reluctant to call it a hobby or a pastime because it feels more than just that. It’s become a way of living for me.
I’ve acquired a lot of information and knowledge pertaining to what some call the spiritual path and almost always I’ve felt a bit like the proverbial ‘goalposts keep on shifting ‘

This feeling of ‘running a marathon yet seeing no finish line’ , became a companion of mine and somehow I accepted that perhaps this is the nature of things for people ‘on the so called spiritual path’

Hehehe, sometimes disillusionment sets in so that we can turn within and find out what really is true for us.

Turning within. What does that mean for each of us? What does it mean for me?Where is within even?

I know it may sound like too esoteric a term for some to even consider- it used to sound that way for me too until I just decided to allow myself to define my own ‘within ‘. I learnt to not see it as a grandiose term or idea- but rather to allow myself to experience it according to my understanding . Meditation helped a great deal in ‘normalizing’ this concept at least to a greater or lesser extent.

How grateful I am for my meditation practice and how much value it has added to my experiencing of life. I thank goodness for being introduced to it by a dear one and will always appreciate it. Meditation on its own, however did not quite ‘do the trick’ of understanding ‘the within’, to gain this understanding I would need to get to first know myself first.
Get to know who I took myself to be, who I expressed myself as and who I experienced myself to be.

This is a process! An on going, infinite process of self discovery.

I learnt that to undertake such a process, what I needed to do was to BE STILL.
BE STILL and listen to what comes out of the silence.

I’m learning to be at ease with myself, to love my own company, to hear my inner voice. I’m learning to mind my language when I speak to myself and about myself.

Recently in a lecture I was listening to about the subconscious mind/inner child- the speaker posed this question "who bears the brunt of what we say to ourselves about ourselves "?

The inner child.

This question gave me pause and for the first time I really began to rethink the idea of ‘self- talk’. The impact of the question still amazes me now and is the reason I felt to write this post.

So… as a parting note, let me leave this question to you- to me. What do you want your inner child to hear from you?
What does self love look like to you?
Who bears the brunt of what you say to yourself about yourself?

Peace and Blessings
Am

Say YES

Note to Self😊

For the longest time I’ve been acutely aware of the call within me to say YES… When life calls…we say Yes.
When Spirit speaks…we say Yes.
When the heart stirs…we say Yes…
When our loved ones on the other side of the veil ask…Siyavuma!

I’ve been saying Yes…
LIVUMIL’ICAMAGU
Ndiyavuma!!!

Vumani Bo!
Siyavuma!
Vumani Bo!
Vumani Bo!
Vumani Bo!

Siyavuma!
Makube Chosi kubehele!
Camagu!

Ho’oponopono

I’ve discovered these magical words recently and the problem solving technique Ho’oponopono. I’m besotted with this new discovery. The premise is that when we experience problems as a result of thoughts and stored memories- then we must only clean ourselves. Look within and to the divinity within say these words;

I’M SORRY

PLEASE FORGIVE ME

I THANK YOU

I LOVE YOU.
I’m unable to yet expand on this method but quite delighted to have come upon it.

This method says ‘you have to love it, to let it go’

I’m sorry

Please forgive me

I thank you

I love you.

Peace and richest blessings…

I, Am.

…There’s more… ‘when you’re old’

When You Are Old

When you are old and grey and full of sleep,

And nodding by the fire, take down this book,

And slowly read, and dream of the soft look

Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace,

And loved your beauty with love false or true,

But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,

And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

And bending down beside the glowing bars,

Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled

And paced upon the mountains overhead

And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

W. B. Yeats, 1865 – 1939

The greatest sonnet of all time! imho.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of being and ideal grace. I love thee to the level of every day’s Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. I love thee freely, as men strive for right. I love thee purely, as they turn from praise. I love thee with the passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death. 

Of M.anifest…

Not too long ago, PEPR And INNER SENSE got a moment to speak to one M.anifest from Ghana, about matters of life, music, immigration, Africa, creativity and the likes. Was one very inspiring and thought provoking talk, you can listen to it for yourself:-)

Do enjoy!

Inner Sense Podcast

Occasionally I feel the spirit move me to take some time to do a little introspection, do inventory, and take some stock of what has happened or  not happened in the last period of my life. The end of winter and the beginning of spring is for me just the right time to do exactly this since the change that is reflected in nature and also seen in the way the people around seem to have a new disposition, inspires me to reflect. It is mid- month of the so-called ‘first month of spring’ at least in these here parts of Scandinavia, so suffice to say I have felt the spirit move me and I am yielding .

As I sat beside myself looking in and looking back, it occurred to me that there may be somethings in the past that were for some reason or other conveniently put on ‘the later base’ to do list. Some may have been from last week, others from last month and indeed even last year.

It’s not uncommon for me to discover some long forgotten little something from yesteryear,  be it tangible or intangible , and thus I tend to be rather pleased when I rediscover it for I choose to believe that  its re surfacing can only mean that perhaps NOW is the Right time for it to be attended to. I believe there is what is called ‘Divine timing’ or the right time, therefore I embrace whatever shows up as a blast from the past and just consider the moment it shows up to be its Right time.

 

Recently as I was putting on my ‘retrospectacles’-to take the liberty of coining a new word-  I was very pleased to discover some long forgotten audio interviews I’d conducted sometime in the distant past, so  with my headphones, laptop and hot chocolate at hand, I  sat back, relaxed and gave in to some listening pleasure. I took the proverbial stroll down memory lane. Going down this lane, I find can have a healing effect on me, for it often offers me an opportunity to release a lot of things that no longer apply to who I have become, and things that no longer serve me. This way I can then create new space for the things whose time has come. The journey to the past I was currently embarking on was having this healing and revealing effect to my relief because, to be honest, one never knows what feelings can rear their heads when one revisits the past. This time I found that gaining a bit of distance from the present moment, also gave me a chance to see just how much growth has happened over time and also how many changes. I of course, also found other interesting things long forgotten such as…

 

Here is a gem I uncovered, beneath all the debris of many an unused sound byte and other audio material. It turned out that once upon a time I had interviewed a dear friend of mind who’d then had her book published, we shared some laughs, talked about issues pertaining to the book specifically and life in general. Listening to our interview inspired me to put together the podcast I’d long been meaning to ‘double-click’ on a ‘later base’. Finally the right time had come to bring Inner Sense Podcast.

 

Here is the first episode from Ciku and I with love.